Meh...Yes, it's been that long. Not intentional. Life just gets in the way sometimes... You know, things like work, family, friends, love, yoga, moving, traveling, reading, sleeping, eating, dating, studying, facebooking, shopping, volunteering, chasing dreams, and simply living.
Frankly, this blogging thing is difficult for me. Not that I don't have anything to say or to talk about (Dear Lord, that's never a problem!). Writing for me is tough - never my strong subject in school. I liked Math. Finite things. Things I could get results & definitive answers from. I was terrified to start this blog a year & a half ago before I went on my journey to travel the world. It was the very last thing I did before I walked out the door to the airport. I pushed it off to the last possible second - so afraid how it would be perceived. Then my friends & family began asking for more. I was flattered, but even as I traveled, there were long bouts of silence because the thought of sitting at a computer for hours, making sure my posts were perfect, was torturous. I even bought a netbook on my travels so that I would always have a notepad on hand; but I still fell behind, and then got shit from my travel buddies (That would be you, Erika & Charity! ;)) that my nose was stuck in my computer trying to "catch up" while we should have been relaxing on the beach. They were right. This should be easier for me. It should just flow - whatever is on my mind. Unfortunately, for me, it's still easier said than done...
A friend of mine recently started a blog and it got me thinking. What about my blog? I still have so much to talk about. Over the last 2 years I have had the most amazing adventures that I've learned and grown so much from. I have a list in the back of my journal of subjects I still want to write about - Self Realization, Speaking English, Sanskrit, Spirituality, Strength, Second Chance, Spain, Saints, etc., etc.... Some are more personal than others - those of which will probably never make my blog, but maybe my memoir someday - which at my rate, will take a lifetime..
Over the past 6 months, people have asked if I will continue to post, but the guilt of being so far behind has deterred me. The blog HAS been on my mind. And then 2 days ago I sent a letter to a friend, whom I respect a ton. I received positive feedback of how well of a writer I was. Really? Little did they know I had spent two hours reading, re-reading, formatting, deleting, copying, and pasting until it was just right. I guess that's just that little bit of Type A left in me... But I think I just needed that little spark of encouragement. Get over my fear of writing. I'm a talker. I have things to share. Who cares if someone wants to critique it - in my opinion, then they shouldn't be reading it. There are plenty of other blogs out there to enjoy. I may not have the best grammar, or be the best speller. I probably have a lot of run-on sentences, and use way too many commas (I heart commas, big time!). But it's me. It's raw. It should be as if it were coming straight out of my mouth, right?
So here I am. Ready to re-commit. Maybe as a challenge for myself, I will set a timer. Every time I post, I will aim for a minute shorter. Starting with my next post, of course...
Frankly, this blogging thing is difficult for me. Not that I don't have anything to say or to talk about (Dear Lord, that's never a problem!). Writing for me is tough - never my strong subject in school. I liked Math. Finite things. Things I could get results & definitive answers from. I was terrified to start this blog a year & a half ago before I went on my journey to travel the world. It was the very last thing I did before I walked out the door to the airport. I pushed it off to the last possible second - so afraid how it would be perceived. Then my friends & family began asking for more. I was flattered, but even as I traveled, there were long bouts of silence because the thought of sitting at a computer for hours, making sure my posts were perfect, was torturous. I even bought a netbook on my travels so that I would always have a notepad on hand; but I still fell behind, and then got shit from my travel buddies (That would be you, Erika & Charity! ;)) that my nose was stuck in my computer trying to "catch up" while we should have been relaxing on the beach. They were right. This should be easier for me. It should just flow - whatever is on my mind. Unfortunately, for me, it's still easier said than done...
A friend of mine recently started a blog and it got me thinking. What about my blog? I still have so much to talk about. Over the last 2 years I have had the most amazing adventures that I've learned and grown so much from. I have a list in the back of my journal of subjects I still want to write about - Self Realization, Speaking English, Sanskrit, Spirituality, Strength, Second Chance, Spain, Saints, etc., etc.... Some are more personal than others - those of which will probably never make my blog, but maybe my memoir someday - which at my rate, will take a lifetime..
Over the past 6 months, people have asked if I will continue to post, but the guilt of being so far behind has deterred me. The blog HAS been on my mind. And then 2 days ago I sent a letter to a friend, whom I respect a ton. I received positive feedback of how well of a writer I was. Really? Little did they know I had spent two hours reading, re-reading, formatting, deleting, copying, and pasting until it was just right. I guess that's just that little bit of Type A left in me... But I think I just needed that little spark of encouragement. Get over my fear of writing. I'm a talker. I have things to share. Who cares if someone wants to critique it - in my opinion, then they shouldn't be reading it. There are plenty of other blogs out there to enjoy. I may not have the best grammar, or be the best speller. I probably have a lot of run-on sentences, and use way too many commas (I heart commas, big time!). But it's me. It's raw. It should be as if it were coming straight out of my mouth, right?
So here I am. Ready to re-commit. Maybe as a challenge for myself, I will set a timer. Every time I post, I will aim for a minute shorter. Starting with my next post, of course...
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